To anyone who thinks I owe them an apology, I probably do.
But most of all, I owe myself an apology. For being less than the person I said I wanted to be. And for making the lives of others worse with my actions and words.
I was swayed by the devil from all that is good and pure. For a long while, I’ve forgotten.
Now I have to walk somewhere very dark and while I do not know what will jump at me from the darkness, I will remain strong because that is the only thing I have known since forever and I will walk bravely through the dark, hopefully being a light that guides whomever needs me, and I will walk out of that darkness, becoming all the stronger, better, and pure.
I will remember that no one deserves less, especially at my hands. I am not a unique snowflake.
He said, “The metta part about being metta is to be metta when it is impossible to be metta.”
& I stand corrected.
